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Next Time
03:43
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So I'm moving south towards greener pastures gone are the days of cold where I just felt
Dead in the water breathing in the air that hurts like asbestos stings it's caught in my
Lungs are screaming out songs that I can't help but hate cause they're from my heart and not from my
Head is in vibrant pain from incessant migraines and I'm in the dark can you say my name
Well I'm losing hope, and losing all my friends I'll begin again this time I will
Cope without feeling lost and abandoning dreams or the ones I love sorry I'm so
Meanings are lost with time and I've been gone a while I have lost my mind and hope is a
Lie down and ice my head and try to get my footing is gone again, I think I'm alright
Summer spring
Winter fall
Go down and back again try to get together the next time that I see you
So I left the world again tried to climb a mountain but there was no view
And If I'm dead again I'll try to pick myself back up to where I left you
The walls are closing in and I can't believe that this is where I'll fall through
With a resounding grin I try to glue the pieces back together but they won't fit
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2. |
Broken and Buried
05:18
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It was snowing when I woke up the window was open but I didn't care
Put a shirt on and I got up, didn't mind the freezing air
And the snow came blowing in through the window that I didn't shut
My room was a tundra that I knew but I thought my warmth might be enough for you
So we made angels in the floor where I lay
And I said that I didn't want this to ever change
So we made a promise that we would stay stuck in the ice age
And we kept our mouths shut and we lived in the house that I made
But we were cold
So I made a fire inside my heart
I fed it with pieces of my soul
You said it was a work of art
But I knew I would never be whole again
So don't look too deep into my heart
You'll find me broken buried in shards
Dead grass lies underneath the snow
I'm buried too deep for you to ever know who I am
And I dug myself too deep
This time I think I'm gonna keep
A line to the surface where you're standing by
Telling me that I am gonna be fine
But I can't believe that this time
Things are really gonna change
Shouldn't I start acting my own age
Isn't there a part for me in this play
If my part's been filled than why should I stay
I'm waiting for the storm to blow over
Think I need a new four leaf clover
Cause mine's run out of luck
Oh trust me, I know that I suck
I just need some time to grow up
Into someone who doesn't give a fuck
And I've known all along
That all I needed was someone to sing along
And that's you, it's true, I've always needed you
To be here, always near, my greatest fear has always been losing you
And maybe I'm just insecure, I've never been quite so sure, about the part that I play am i the poison or the cure
And I don't know if it's me or if you're just all I see but I think that I know just what I'll be
When the parts have all been cast the snow and rain have passed I'll be standing tall for you you'll be my sail and I your mast and if that's what we have to do to keep our ship sailing through the storm that's broke against our hull then
I will last forever darling if that's what you need
An eternal anthem in an endless sea
Where tides are brutal and storms are rough
I know I'm not perfect just hope i'm enough
So if you need my hand don't hesitate
To clear you conscious start an empty slate
Let's close the window and let's bring it home
Our fire's smothered and our life is coal
But there's heat left somewhere, that I know
So take my hand and please dont' please don't go
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3. |
Getting Better
02:38
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Hey hey
I'm getting better
Hey hey
I don't know what I should say
Hey hey
These constant failures
Hey hey
I feel worse every day
Hey hey
The subtle reminders
Hey hey
They all just bring me down
Hey hey
But it's not your fault
Hey hey
You never made a sound
Hey hey
You tell me something
Hey hey
Tell me what cha think of me
Hey hey
Am I just a nuisance
Hey hey
Could you tell me what you see
Hey hey
Is this disappointment
Hey hey
I'm living out my dreams
Hey hey
Though they see m like nightmares
Hey hey
Life's not all that it seems
So I tell you that I'm thinking about skipping town
Say I'll pack all my things and bury them in the ground
So that when I come back they'll be waiting there for me
Just like you were when I left, I don't deserve your company
Hey hey
But that's not all I mean
Hey hey
When I say I'm not doing well
Hey hey
I feel myself collapse
Hey hey
As my brain begins to swell
Hey hey
My veins will all give out
Hey hey
And all my skin will melt
Hey hey
The years of suffering
Hey hey
The ground will soon have felt
And all these subtle inconveniences will one day bring me back to you
And I will ask you how things have been how's the old neighborhood is everyone doing well?
And I'll notice small hints of decay in your words as you send them to me
But you won't tell me how you really felt from all the years of neglect and the months I never called
Hey hey
I dont know
Hey hey
Don't ask what this is about
Hey hey
Accept with open arms
Hey hey
My shadows and my doubt
Hey hey
And please don't judge me
Hey hey
On all my mistakes
Hey hey
They bring me solace
Hey hey
They travel in my wake
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4. |
Come Undone
03:26
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You wake up and you feel so alone
So you go back to sleep for a couple hours to see what you can be
In your dreams, in your nightmares, where your body won't hold you back
And you find it's not that great
So you tell yourself you can change so you tell yourself that you're wrong you say that you haven't gone too far you say that it hasn't been too long
And the earth it becomes your cage and your body just wont engage with the hopeless and the rage and the ones who made you feel this way
So you start again try to find some new friends but you can't
Angels god and your parents debt tell you that you shouldn't have left yet they say you've got a life ahead of you and that you'll never fill their shoes
Or their jobs or your dumb degree all i want is to feel like me is that really too much to ask all i want is for this to last
And it falls apart, right at the best part, it always does
Now you feel like, things have come undone. You can't find the way that everything's supposed to be
And the world around you has all gone and changed and you don't know how things have gone and got this way
You can't help but feel like you've been betrayed by the people around you all the ones you thought were safe
And i dont' even know if this is how things will stay if all the anger and the pain will ever go away
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5. |
Apologies
06:00
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If i could live anywhere I'd live anywhere but here
And if I could be anything I'd be anything but me
And broken homes make broken families and that breaks me
So if I'm crying when you get here just know that somebody called me
So i'll drink by myself tonight, safety nets have holes
If i'm in free fall please catch me where I land
And that's not all I need please help me get to my feet
Cause I can't stand another evening sitting here in silence praying I don't here my name
So if you need a second just to catch your breath please think about all the times that I have lost mine and if this exercise has taught you anything there's now a window to my mind
So if you're second guessing things I wrote or words I never said I hope this helps you figure out I always meant it every time I told you this could be my last you were the best I ever had and old apologies for slights you never knew I did
So would it kill you to say I'm sorry? I'm not surprised that I have to ask for everything you took from me I'll fight to get myself back
So would you apologize? Or is that too much to ask of you you selfish fuck I can't believe I'm alright well I guess that's just dumb luck
Take a look at me now. I turned out alright, at least I tell myself that every night to stave off darkness then eventually the light.
So when I die I'll think of you, and all the things you do. Not because you ever mattered but because you tainted me I only hope I hurt you too
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6. |
Bury Me
04:03
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So when I die I will think of you
And while i live I will be consumed
By moving pictures flashing lights and my fire escape
The moving shadows on the wall and my impending fate
So take me out of, out of here, to the place where you've been hiding from me all these years
Bury sadness, where it can be found, you'll need it someday, when you find your luck on the ground
Burn your hope and, put it on display where all can see it and someday you will find your way
I read this all, in a book, where words unspoken captured me I cried and I shook
And that's not the way I wanna die I'll tell you why
If life's a chore and nothing more then when we're on deaths door
We're at the gate procrastinate you're not so great
And man if that's really all there is to live then well, fuck it
So let's get wasted, fuck our dreams, there's nothing left but these old magazines
Bury me, standing up, so when I wake up I can lay right back where I was
Brick and mortar, hold me inside, the shattered plaster of my life we live and we die
Family, friends and neighbors will all come to a hole in the ground
From there they see the life that never will be found
It lives forever with the worms where they won't ever hear a sound
But in that silence authors live and king will be crowned
And if you're honest and you're kind, your luck will follow you through to the other side
With haunted mirrors, comes haunting change, the past sits always watching you as you age
If you hear me, or if you feel my pain, just know I've become the chorus and refrain
And I read this all, in a book, where words unspoken captured me I cried and I shook
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7. |
Tomorrow
04:34
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So if I'm honest, I'm feeling lonely worse every day now I'm drowning slowly
This insurrection feels like a dead end, the waves crash slowly I'm over my head
With bloated bodies of former colleagues, family and lovers, all float beside me
In this frozen ocean, this vapid wasteland, I feel exhausted getting by
So let tomorrow pass me by just like the rolling of the tide when time is low and moving slow and i can't even close my eyes
No I don't know if, this is forever, I'm barely solid under the weather
A vast hypnosis, a fate made frugal, a dirge plays softly from a bugle
That sings our ending, that haunts our dreaming, i can't remember if hope was fleeting
Our final moments, I'm feeling empty, I can't believe this no movie ending
Still the beating of my heart, and tell me why it is so hard to be alive, to take your time, or for us to be apart
We have to live we have to try
We have to live we will not die
So if I don't wake up today, please just leave me where I lay, I didn't really need the time it's okay to pass me by
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8. |
As Long As You're Around
04:10
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All I ever wanted was to know your plans but all I ever did was follow you into the dark
And i don't know that I will ever understand "Til death, do us part"
So if I tell you that I'm feeling kind of grand when I think about the feelings in my hand
Just know that it's only cause of you and the things that you do
If we stay the way we are, we will look up at the stars
And we will see reflections staring back at us through gritted teeth
Crying softly through their struggle, to make ends meet
But they are happy, they are helpful, they have giants 'neath their feet
And so if things ever change
I have written down my middle name
so I can remember what lies between
my beginnings and who I am
So take me out, please take me out of the game
If I seem insincere please know I'm not
And if this is too much, just turn it off
Otherwise the record scratches and our bodies rot
With my time left, I won't jerk off
I will spend every minute thinking of your laugh
The very fiber of my being being wound and wound
Tangled up inside your fabric, drawn as a graph
Never lost and nothing tragic, as long as I've got you around
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9. |
Comfortable
03:55
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Life is so short, that we're conscious of our change
We'll be here so long, that the earth will learn our names
And we'll learn hers
Patience is a virtue, that I never learned from reading prose
I don't know if, wisdom withers or it grows
In my heart or my hands
And my art never stands to be a part of the machine
And my heart will expand to find to find beauty in the smallest things
And I will land on your heart strings
So when I move out, who will move in to my place
And if I sell out who will write of my disgrace
And when I blow up, will I finally catch a wiff
Of what the world's like, when the focus isn't this
And I'll focus and try to be a part of the abyss
And i'll notice that the world isn't as mean as it seems
And i'll focus on the boxes I've packed and the facts that I've ignored
And I'll pretend that I'm not terrified of moving on
You'll hold my hand as we move forwards towards the night dissatisfied and frightful we're alive
And I'm thriving deeply in the night where I find that I am in fact afraid to die but it's alright because I can already see we're led by a candlelight
And it's telling me to trust in you
And I believe it's what I have to do
To find my place next to you
And we'll find out
the debt we have is greater than the sum of our parts
And we'll take loans and mortgages to find a place where we can be comfortable
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Southern Stars
04:45
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I've got friends in places I could never understand
I've got memories of faces lying desperate in the sand
I've got problems yeah we all do and they never seem to change
It's always the same ones that reside inside my brain
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If I told you that I loved you would you take it the wrong way
I don't do this stuff that often but I'm usually okay
What I mean to say's that friends are often hard for me to find
So when I find them oh I keep them for the rest of my whole life
And I don't want to be alone again
And I don't want to sing alone again
And I don't want to be a fucked up friend
And I don't want this to end
If I'm silent I promise that I just need time to mend
And for those southern stars to be aligned before my signals send
There's a wire jammed a cable loose or something's blocking the way
Because although you never hear from me I'm trying every day
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So trust me when I tell you that you've never left my head
I think of you every summer night when the trees rustle my bed
In that special way that happens only a couple times a year
If you're calling I listen I promise I'll be here
So if you hear my voice in southern cities give me a call if you're still with me and when I hear your voice I'll come so swiftly that you won't miss me you won't miss me
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11. |
A Chorus Of My Own
04:57
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I lost myself again I really need to learn to bend
And not break the cracks beneath the ground holding up my feet
When my life wasn't so bleak when I didn't feel so weak
And I could have been a friend but I was caught up within
But I wasn't and I'm gone so no more stringing you along
It's just movies and TV and all the books I never read
The games I play and my guitar I wanna know just who you are
Beneath the shadows and mundane will you please call out my name
So I give it one more chance
I shatter all romance
And I tell you that I'll never be whole again
I've lost all those I've called my friends
I've buried them whole and taken apart my ends
I'm dying here once somebody call this off and
Take me out of here get rid of my dying thoughts
And tell me I'm alive and tell me that I'm not myself
And tell me I can mend
Down and back again, try to get together the next time that I see you
Don't look to deep into my heart, you'll find my broken buried in shards
So I tell you I'm skipping town, say I'll pack my things and bury them in the ground
And i dont' know if this is how things will stay if all the anger and the pain will ever go away
So if you need a second just to catch your breath please think about the times that I have lost mine
I read this all, in a book, where words unspoken captured me and I shook
So let tomorrow pass me by just like the rolling of the tide
Never lost and nothing tragic, as long as I've got you around
And we'll take loans and mortgages to find a place where we can be comfortable
So if you hear my voice in southern cities give me a call if you're with me
These are the moments that have passed and these are the lives that never last
And this is the shape you've left me in depressed and dejected stuck staying in
But I'll get outside someday because I promise that I'm here to stay
I know it's hard and that it's dumb but I will hold on until we've won
I'll get up and I'll get out and I'll get better every day
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